To me, there is nothing worse in the world than listening to someone tell me how to live my life. It is my life and I am an adult and I don’t want to be told how to live it. I also want to make sure that my new life doesn’t get stuffed down anyone else’s throat.
My Old Friends
I understand when people in meetings call their friends, “Drinking Buddies.” I have some of them myself. Many of these stories from others in the meetings say, “they really weren’t my friends after all.” I am sure this is true in their case and I have no reason to disbelieve these stories. My story is a little different. I do have “friends” that are just “drinking buddies.” But I cannot say that all my friends are just “drinking buddies.” It is kinda like Facebook. All of my Facebook friends are not real friends, in fact, some of these people I don’t even know at all! But just because some of them are strangers doesn’t justify generalizing that they all are. Same goes with “drinking buddies.”
Some Don’t Know
I don’t feel it necessary to post on Facebook or anywhere else that I am going to AA. That is what the anonymous means. I also haven’t driven up and down the road proclaiming it to the neighborhood. I have told some family as well as some friends. Some of those friends are drinkers, a few of them heavy drinkers. We have talked since I started going to AA but we haven’t talked about AA or the meetings. We talk about our lives, we talk about what is happening in them. During these visits I am not drinking. Most of the time they are. We don’t even discuss the fact that I am not drinking. There is a lot more to our relationship than what we are drinking.
I Have Hope
I have hope that I will keep living life one day at a time and without booze. I hope that I can keep my eye on the prize and focus on the triggers that cause my alcohol escape hatch. I hope that I will stay humble and not evangelize the “evils of drinking.” I hope that if and when anyone of my friends that knew me in my party days need help, know they can come to me because of how I am living and not how I am talking. I pray for them as I live one day at a time.