After my fourth AA Meeting and my second day without any new alcohol in my system, I asked my business partners out to lunch to tell them of my plans to stop drinking. My plans to go to AA. Here is the post from that situation.
“It’s the Economy, Stupid!”
Said Bill Clinton. Said many businesses including mine as the economy flushed one customer after another down the toilet. Bankruptcy notices and balances left unpaid really effected our business. Really brought me to my old friend, “Vitamin V” to make my pains and anxiety duller. It quenched the thirst of that devil on my shoulder that kept telling me that just a couple drinks would make everything better. That I would be able to get to sleep, be able to rally and produce when I needed to. It was the economy.
It Was Alcoholism
True, the economy effected our business and fueled that devil. But that devil was alcoholism and it was all mine. And still the economy sucks, the ‘friggen” government is in “shutdown” and I am close to 120 days without a drink, that is all mine too.
As I said earlier in this post, two days into my sobriety effort we had a partners meeting. Again the post from earlier is here. That was the last meeting that we had together. Lunch at an “all you can eat” chinese buffet. We have weekly staff meetings but no meetings of leadership. WTF? I say.
Lots of Things to Think About
I sat down and HAND WROTE each of my partners a letter today, 12 pages. I drove to where each of them was and hand delivered it to them in an envelope. Hopefully they read it. It isn’t my way of making excuses or making amends. It is the recognition of the situation our company is in and what I think we need to do to “right the ship” if we want to. But it is a “we” thing. Now that the fog has cleared there is so much that is obvious to me and it begins by talking.
Now if we only want it bad enough to do it.