Well I haven’t done anything rash since my last post except pray more, meditate, call my sponsor a couple times and doubled up on meetings. That is all I have in my toolbox right now and I am using it. Sometimes I just have to get out of my head!
Thank God For Different Meetings
I am grateful to the fact that I live in an area where there are many meetings throughout the day and many options to the type of meetings we have. After being in a fog yesterday and just having a general feeling of doom and sh*ttiness, once I got my blog post written I learned that I needed another meeting. Usually when I have a “monkey brain” with twists of fear/sadness/anger included, well in the old days I drank. Yesterday I didn’t. Last night I didn’t. Instead I went to a Discussion group with my Sponsor. Not a big group, but lots and lots of sobriety.
Process Process Process
I got a call from the Medicine Man and we just “processed.” I love that, no judgement, no advice, no pressure, just blah, blah, blah. Neither one of us expected to FIX anything or even give extensive advice. We both shared other stories that had nothing to do with how we were feeling individually. You know, like friends do. Alcoholics make great friends. Since I “joined” this group of folks, I have found some of the coolest people on the planet. AND I have found some of the coolest people on the planet that I knew OUTSIDE of AA were in the program and I had no idea. They just were relaxed folks and I liked them. Now I find our they are Alcoholic!! HA HA HA!!
It isn’t a bad thing. And this morning I went to a meeting and I am going again tonight. I haven’t solved anything or done anything. Most importantly, I didn’t drink.