Here I thought I was going to be writing more and yet I have been blogging for others and working pretty hard. I also have been doing step work and working on myself. Sorry I have been gone for a while. I do hope you missed me!
No not mine, I am just over 9 months sober and grateful for every day. I have a list to prove it. Still doing the “Gratitude List.” So practically every night since Thanksgiving Day, I write 3 – 5 things down in a notebook. It does seem to slow the spin of self doubt and does make me think a bit differently. My friend (we will call her Jane), celebrated 1 year today at our Shelter Meeting. It was great for her, lots of tears and her Mom and sister were there. Since I am involved with the Group Conscience with this meeting, I did some of the work, made arrangements for things to happen, she asked that there not be a “big deal made” she doesn’t like to be the “center of attention.” All I can say is, “I tried.” She got the traditional, cake and card.
Upon my arrival at the Shelter, the normal set up person was not there. And because of some renovations at the Shelter, things were all over the place, it was a full moon last night and St. Patrick’s Day, today. If you don’t believe in any karma surrounded by a full moon, you check out a homeless shelter during the cycle for a few months. It is amazing the upset that happens. New Moons are similar. So along with setting up for Jane’s anniversary the meeting needed to be set up too. We all scurried around, asked Jane’s sponsor to chair the meeting to which she declined in quite a bitchy fashion and pushed her Sponsee – Jane (the celebrant), to Chair. Because in her words, “That is what sponsors do.” Um, no thanks.
Great Way to Start the Day
Without recounting every last detail, we got the meeting going, Jane Chaired and our normal setup person appeared and did he ever look terrible! Bloated, red face, glassy eyed. He came to me and said, “I went back out and I feel so shitty.” All I could do was hug him and tell him how happy I was to see him and that I was so glad he came back. He told on himself in the meeting and got support and love from everyone. Oh sure the usual “Preacher” preached but most everyone else offered love and compassion. We all were reminded how fragile our sobriety is. He could have been any one of us on any day.
As we did “Round Robin” around the room, Jane got her wish as not being the center of attention, there was some Congratulations mentioned but mostly we unintentionally focused on the wounded. We ate cupcakes and presented a Certificate and Chips. One “White” Chip and a “One Year” Chip. And so it goes/