When I first got sober, it was hard to imagine a day without a drink. And at times, it was hard to imagine an hour without a drink. Thank God and my home group, kept me glued together, let me know of things that were outside my comfort zone and took me to events before I dared to show up by myself.
“We Will Love You Until You Love Yourself”
This saying is one of the very many I heard when I first came in. It is also one of the very many that has changed in meaning as my recovery has grown and deepened. At first it meant, someone welcoming me when I showed up to a meeting I had never been to. Or when I shared something painful, a compassionate look or a gentle touch of someone that sent the message to me “You’re Not Alone.” I needed to have lots of those moments to realize this was the real deal – This Place –R E C O V E R Y was where I belonged. Somewhere along the way, I was able to begin to give back to my home group, my friends and the program of Alcoholics Anonymous. Because this fellowship filled my heart with love so then I could love.
It is okay if your family of origin makes you crazy. It’s okay if you need a break to get away. And it is really okay, if you can find someplace safe, safe and sober to run to, to recharge the batteries, to stay sober. Especially, if you are traveling out of town, or even back to your home town, take a few minutes to look up some meetings. Find out where they are and what time they are being held.
Make A Plan
Even though my family may have not have been driving me nuts at the very moment, I have a plan to have a meeting in the schedule each day. I find it helps me maintain. It gives me my space and time to salute and nurture my recovery. If you are up here in Maine, we have Alca-thons over the holidays that hold meetings 24 hours a day during the tough times of the Holidays. Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years, we have something going on that is a sober alternative. I know in my house holidays where the HIGH HOLY DRINKING DAYS of the year and we all knew where we could stock up when some of our favorite stores were closed.
Stock Up on Meetings
Instead of searching for a “Beer Store” (as my Dad would call it), I make sure I don’t have to search for a meeting because I all ready know where one is and where my real friends are! I can leave chaos and find serenity.
Happy New Year!