Life has been dealing some tough hands around my house lately. It is has been “Life on Life’s Terms” time of my Recovery in heaping helpings…
Saturday night, I frequently go to a Speaker Meeting. Of course it is all new, I am about 3 1/2 years in-a Day At A Time-and weekends were “party time.” I could drink openly and not sneak it. Now I hang out with other alcoholics that are working to stay away from a drink. Many are BEYOND the obsession and craving. I have been (THANK GOD) for a long time, but that doesn’t mean I don’t think about the “good ole days” don’t play the scene all the way through, I only want to remember the good parts.
Sober and Awake
At 8:30 last night I was brushing my teeth and getting ready for bed, sounds exciting, right? I heard a funny hissing noise and went to check it out. It took a while, but finally it was discovered. A large leak in a steam boiler in my house. (I live in a 225 year old farmhouse) so things are old but the “furnace guy” had been over Thursday to winterize everything, clean, etc.
I called him – he too, was sober and awake. Walked me through what to do to make it stop until he could get here in the morning. The leaking (more like gushing) from the furnace stopped. Then the work started to get to all the radiators that were leaking water too (all over the floors.) It was a mess but doable.
It was 11:00 and a shower later I was getting to bed. My furnace guy came and fixed it up by noon on a Sunday. No charge.
Why I am Thankful
Often I am away on weekends. If this had happened without an “intervention” there could have been extensive damage. What ended up happening was an inconvenience not a disaster. “Back in the Day,” I may have been drunk and not known what to do or perhaps not heard it at all. Or even today, I could have been away for the weekend. But I wasn’t, I was home and within 12 hours all was well.
I don’t mind saying that I didn’t sleep very well, I was pretty freaked out right after it happened thinking about “what might have been.” Not sure what to expect when repairs were to be made. And the guilt hangover that I would have had along with lots of damage if I had been drinking and didn’t know it was happening.
All of what could have happened, didn’t. But I still have those instant old fearful feelings, leftover from old behaviors that I don’t do anymore. $hit still happens and I am grateful that it all worked out.
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